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3-7-12

Today we had an appointment with Dr. Adam.  I am 31 1/2 weeks pregnant and going into this appointment we had been told to prepare ourselves for the possibility of bad news.  Today when they took Joshua's measurements from the ultrasound they found that Joshua had only gained 1 ounce when he should have at least 12 ounces.  This was something that our doctor had warned us about and we thought we had prepared ourselves for this possible news however I don't think you can possibly prepare for the news that your child may not live another day.  Dr. Adam told us that she could admit us today to monitor Joshua and deliver when necessary or we could chance loosing him in my womb and come back on Tuesday and re assess.  We so desperately want our precious boy to be born alive, however she said at 1 lb. 12 oz and with his brain and heart conditions his chances are stacked high against him.  So we decided to give him a week and pray hard for him to continue to grow and live.  On Tuesday when we go back if things are the same or worse we will most likely be admitted to the hospital and no matter what she wants to deliver him on or before March 23.  So now everything is in super speed and we are wishing time could stand still.  We no longer will deliver at Texas Children's because they wont start delivering babies there until March 26th so on Monday we will meet again with the Texas Children's Neonatologist to revise our birth plan and get a tour of St. Luke's.  Nathan and I also are going to meet with funeral homes this week to begin to prepare for the change in plans.  We desperately need your prayers.  Prayers that Joshua continues to fight and that we are blessed by getting to meet him before God takes him home.  We are still praying and asking for prayers of a miracle but we are also preparing for what we are being told.  Please, please, please pray for Joshua, me, Nathan, James and John Patrick.  Nathan and I feel so honored and humbled that God chose us to be Joshua's parents.  We love him so much and are so sad that our time with him might be almost up.  Please pray that he spends the time he has left in my womb kicking and moving up a storm so we can experience as much life as possible.  

(my fluid was very low so they weren't able to print us a good picture of Joshua, but know that he is just as beautiful as ever)

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you may abound in hope by the power of the holy Spirit."  Romans 15:13